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May 23 BT 之 BT中午出门前开了bt下电影，心想晚上回到家，劳累了一天，正好看片调剂。离家时形势蛮鼓舞人的，0个种子速度居然还有70k/s，我之前在这边用bt从来没达到过着这个速度，美滋滋的：如此下去一个多小时就能载完，晚上爽了。。。
哪知道晚上10点多回来，发现进度居然在49%就停了！！！美好的plan就这样被BT之BT破坏！！
要下的电影是我想看很久了的一部港片，陈可辛导演，张国荣，袁咏仪主演的《金枝玉叶》。故事大概讲的是，袁咏仪为了接近仰慕已久的音乐制作人张国荣，女扮男装参加张组织的某次男歌手选拔，被入选，然后在工作相处中两人渐渐产生感情，张察觉到自己对于“同性”袁咏仪不寻常的感情并为此苦恼，最终发现原来袁乃一女儿身。。。
嗯，想看很久了，原因有：主演的两位角儿都是我非常喜欢的演员！还特别喜欢里面的一首插曲《追》！再来，我向来对于男扮女装反串的情节极其感兴趣，大概跟我在中学时曾经两次反串演罗密欧有关。。
今晚看不了，就让它慢慢下着吧。世事总是如此，期待的越久，就越难到手，到手之后，往往又会觉得不过如此。。。呵呵
前几天看了《雏菊》。导演《无间道》的刘伟强执导，韩国头牌美女帅哥，全智贤，郑雨盛主演。前段时间，该片在国内大肆宣传，男女主演亲自到内地造势，还出席了前不久的香港金像奖颁奖典礼。据传，该片既有韩剧向来擅长渲染的爱情故事之凄美，还融合了以《无间道》为代表的港式警匪片的悬念成分。。。于是俺被诱惑着看了。看下来感觉还成吧，没有想象的好，三位主角如我所料最后全死掉了，我却没太大感觉。批评他人前先自我检讨：或许是我最近人总呆呆的，之前看韩剧必费纸巾的功能也跟着退化了。。。
又换了一个MV，特地选的是由《雏菊》的两主演全智贤，还有郑雨盛合作演绎的。
故事蛮逗的，男主角在里面不要太可爱~~~口水~~~嘿嘿~~~
大概此MV原本也是一部电影。如果哪位知道片名或者有此片，请告诉我，哭谢~~
刚才写到“角儿”，记起《霸王别姬》里一台词，几天前有感于实验室的一些事，坐公车时还在车上品位着这句：
想要成角儿，就得自个儿成全自个儿！
到哪儿都是这个理~
May 22 就可以这样简单。。
头昏脑胀的时候，顺着墙根，摸到附近实验室坐坐，跟自己喜欢的好朋友说说话，没什么主题，有一句没一句，就舒服了。。
活到20好几，现在的我似乎什么都没能真正拥有，除了父母，还有一帮对我不离不弃的朋友们。。。
身边的人熙熙攘攘，
有忙要帮才来热诺的，
热诺过后却莫名疏远的，
来来往往，无常
——于是更觉你们的可贵~~
圣要好好照顾自己，每天开开心心地过
璐当TA正滋润着吧，不担心你还是记挂你
贝贝带团在外奔波，安全要放心上，表还是糊里糊涂的
佳打工好辛苦，要注意身体
弟弟，姐姐bless你，早点抚平伤心事，offer快快来
老婆新加坡会议一定漂亮表现，加油
莉，还有燕，消失了好一会，在忙啥呢
相，在外面混难免波折，谢谢你挺我，有你做Back up，我就不担心啰，哈哈:P
XX，这几天都能和你网上聊几句，如你所说，蛮满足的
Bernyhu，原来你总是在
还有孔雀，表沉闷啦
。。。
May 18 又忙实验室的活到晚上10点。。。
希望还是停留在希望。。。
累，只想抱着妈妈挨着妈妈的脸美美地睡一觉~~
补：
说点让人兴奋的事——
刚才预约了签证， 如我所愿，正好是6月26日上午，上海：）
顺便报告我的行程：
25号晚上到上海，26号一早签证，下午回杭州。
原本说在杭州就待一个晚上，可是我有好多好多想见的人，想吃的东西~~~
如果不是我一厢情愿，也有好多人想见我的话，俺就求求老妈，让我在杭州多留一天。
接着，27号下午火车，28号早上到武汉~~
看了marine的评论，发现写错了，28号下午的火车，29号回武汉，虽然行程还是蛮紧的:P
一会睡觉又要做好梦啦~~~
可是我不想做好梦啊，睁开眼睛后，跟梦里差太远了，唉
May 17 爱情的不幸不过是你喜欢我，我却喜欢他。。。
换了个MV，稍发感叹，无它耳，勿做联想~~
实验室的活暂时告一段落啦~~~
本来昨天就干完活了，哪知我还没有得意一会，带我的那个印度帅哥就走过来，
尽管我在心里默念，不要找我，不要找我，可——
Xi，actually there is another task for you...
晚上8点左右把这个task也搞定了，然后去library自习了一小时，
10点钟坐车回家，突然想去商贾园买夜宵吃，大概是傍晚随便塞了个三文治未能果腹 :P
Anyway， 希望帅哥不要再蹦出来几个another，
让咱从明天起能一心搞prelim~~~
May 13 突然想吃玉泉大门外FREEMORI对面的炒粉干。。。
饿～～～※_※
今天基本都在集中精神study，除了上午聊了一会QQ，下午6点左右看了一集柯南以外 ：P
中午收到xiaofei电话，说有俩男生找她下午去玩，问我去不去。原来是这么回事——
某天我跟某女伴玩笑，说让她负责解决我的个人问题，没想到她真上心了。还托xiaofei帮忙物色。
这次算第二次啦，不久前才安排过一次K歌活动。
我是觉得好玩啦，反正不过是认识新朋友，还可以去玩。
电话里xiaofei的语气像是蛮认真的，弄得我小感动了一会，然后琢磨着：咱要不要在心态上配合点？
嘿嘿
不过今天不行——
在Prelim前，对PLAY说NO！ prelim的date终于announced啦~~~往年都是5月20号左右考，今年到了五月初都还没有announce date，弄得人神经兮兮的。。
前一段日子，虽然口口声声说要考prelim，好重要，要少玩少玩！
结果老抱着侥幸心理，借口说反正还没有定时间，有机会就去玩 :P
然后一旦想起prelim将至，还没啥头绪，就慌乱得不行，来不及了~~来不及了~~:(
现在时间终于announced了，虽比想象中晚了几天，时间还是蛮紧张，加上实验室的活又不断，。。。
这下好了，终于可以死了玩性，铁下心来备考啦~~
可恨的是，东部的那些朋友们一个个都放了假，还一个一个在msn上竞相晒着回家倒计时，羡慕得我不行~~~~呜呜~~~~秋爽更是过分，干脆就跑到LA来当面刺激我！！刚才我歪在床头啃书，这个幸福的人竟乐滋滋地在查明天去Universal Studio还有Hollywood Blvd的路线！真是不公平！！！
~~~~呜呜~~~~
prelim时间安排是：6月1日（闭卷）、2日（开卷）笔试；5日口试。
大家都来监督我，看我上网一定狠狠把我踢下来！拜托了~~ OTL May 11 PIECES TAKEN FROM FEYNMAN'S RAINBOWI would present, in the following, several pieces of writing taken from 'Feynman's Rainbow' , a book I read the other day and once mentioned in one of my previous blog. I finished the book in a hurry, and the language itself does not appeal much to me; nevertheless, the plain story did strike in me a resonance, at the right moment when I was kind-of experiencing disillusionment and confusion towards my long-held pursuit.
The general idea of the book is simple —— even sounds silly if I try to recap. You would say, isn't it what we've always been told? Well, It's true. But we just keep forgetting in the meantime.
The idea is kind-of spread out in the book, striking me here and there between lines. Here I pick up two pieces that might give you the idea, and to me, a re-eching and encouragement.
First piece——IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE FUN
''Do you know who first explained the true origin of the rainbow?" I asked. "It was Descartes," he said. After a moment he looked me in the eye. "And what do you think is the salient feature of the rainbow that inspired Descartes' mathematical analysis?" he asked. "Well, the rainbow is actually a section of a cone that appears as an arc if the colors of the spectrum when a drop of eater are illuminated by sunlight behind the observer." "And?" "I suppose his inspiration was the realization that the problem could be analyzed by considering a single drop, and the geometry of the situation." "You're overlooking a key feature of he phenomenon," he said. "Okay, I give up. What would you say inspired his theory?" "I would say his inspiration was that he thought rainbows were beautiful." —— isn't it too simple to be true... or am I being ridiculous to doubt its truth? However, I'd rather it be. I looked at him sheepishly. He looked at me. "How is your work coming? " he asked.
I shrugged. "It's not really coming. " I wished I was like Constantine. It all came so easily to him. —— if asked, I would respond the same...sigh...
"Let me ask you something. Think back to when you were a kid, did you love science? Was it your passion?" ——this is what most of us started with, on & off along the way... I nodded. "As long as I can remember." "Me, too," he said."Remember, it's supposed to be fun." And he walked on. ——hmm, it's supposed to be fun. Let's make fun of it, shall we? Second piece——INTERNAL FOCUS I had gone through college and into academisin a hurry, wanting to rush ahead with my work, to prove to the world that I had been alive, and that it had mattered. That was an external focus to life. That was Murray's wasy. To accomplish and impress. To be an important person, and a leader. It was the classical path. The traditional one. It seemed to be an obvious and worthy goal. I had accepted it without second thought. But for me, it was like chasing a rainbow. Even worse, it was like chasing other people's rainbow. Rainbows whose beauty I didn't really see. —— so much resembles what I kept rehearsing day & night inside during these days. Through Feymann I saw another possibility. And just as the discovery of the quantum principle caused physicists to revamp all their theories, Feynman's example caused me to rethink mine. He didn't seek the leadership role. He didn't gravitate to the sexy "unified" theories. For him satisfaction in discovery was there even if what you discover was already known by others. It was there even if all you are doing is rederiving someone else's result your own way. And it was there even if your creativity is in playing with your child. It was self-satisfa tion. Feynman's focus was internal, and his internal focus gave him freedom. —— where is my internal focus, and together lies my freedom? May 08 Tanned昨儿在海滩上暴晒了整整一下午。今天房东见到我，惊呼you got tanned！！
说我面露红光，几天后就会有令人眼羡的黝黑黝黑的健康肤色。
我的妈呀。。我昨天可是一直都戴着墨镜，那不是要变成熊猫了，还是反对比的。。。
在想另一桩事。盛情难却，不忍拒绝，答应了却让自己陷入为难之中，
这究竟是谁在做好事？谁又在说感谢？
也罢，简单一点，抱着感激的心情享受珍贵的诚意好了。
养颜去咯~好觉，无梦~ May 06 世上只有妈妈好 世上只有
容祖儿
望着你讲也许更易
浓于水的三个字 从我降世一开始 到永远不休止 你亦是我支柱 动力和意义 you make me cry, make me smile,
make me feel the love is true 谢谢你的关顾与及无偿的爱护 年月漫漫多艰苦 你也永远优先担心我喜恶 唯恐我并未得到最贴身保护 oh i love you! 但是我知你都有梦
仍将一生给我用 全个世界几多种 爱与爱在互动 也未及这种爱 能完全献奉 yes i do, i always do you make me cry, make me smile, make me feel the love is true 谢谢你的看顾与历年来的爱护 年月漫漫多艰苦 我再重也不肯抛低我不顾 从不会立下私心怕会给辜负 oh i love you! yes i love you, i always do A GREAT DAY今天玩得好开心好开心好开心。
很高兴我答应了出去，没有闷在家里假用功。嗯 May 04 TRY这个GAME~~是我们实验室一个已经毕业的师兄在实验室传开的~~
我前几天玩的时候，网站上公布的record还只是230多米，两天后就被一老印刷新到1840多（让我足够怀疑是不是有cheating），刚才再上去看，竟然已经4449米啦！×※￥％※OZL％＃￥※
last name显示居然还是一老印！！
不服气！不服气！
靠我是没有希望啦。。。前天玩了一会，总是超不过72。。。
 于是贴上来给大家试试，就不信咱中国人玩不到那个境界！ May 02 曹西的鸟卿卿晚上和大爷讲电话，欣闻电话里有清脆的鸟叫声。
问，方知大爷正在曹西楼。窗外绿树成晕，间有小鸟唧喳。
闭眼，想念起母校浙大的春天，体育场和生医楼间的树荫，八舍楼下大道中的花圃，。。。，
还有，仍在那处明媚春光里明媚的你们。
行政楼前的栀子花也快要开了吧。
一年过后，又到了分离的季节。
May 01 黄脸婆今晚开开心心的做了一顿饭。
上一回抱着这么好的心情下厨都不知道是啥时候的事啦~~
简简单单两个菜：
胡萝卜芦笋虾仁
青椒洋葱爆火腿
加一清汤：
蔬菜鱼片鸡蛋汤
牢记老爸的叮嘱：营养！营养！ |
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